Thursday, September 30, 2004
Freedom!
The past is now completely behind me...Satan can no longer use the fear of past mistakes to haunt me, because the people who are close to me know and they still love me the same...nothing has changed...I think the only thing that has come out of all this is the bonds have become stronger...
posted by AshbyInLove @ 11:25 PM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
I wish I was
there...enough said...hehehe
posted by AshbyInLove @ 5:27 PM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
I'm missing you all very much and would love to hear from you all soon...I love letters, phone calls, and emails...but I would have to say I am a letter person...Emails are ok too, but letters take more time and makes the person feel love and appreciated...you know? I would love to hear from you all soon...Please email me I REALLY MISS EVERYONE VERY MUCH!!! Brothers and Sisters that means you all very strongly...I really want to keep in touch with you all by phone, but I don't know if that info is on LamadOhana or not...Can someone let me know about that? Thanks! Talk to you all later.... By the way, Chris and I are doing great! We miss seeing each other very much, but the Lord is pulling us through and we look forward to the time we will get to see each other....Well, enough hints...hehehe....email me at stolengirl@gmail.com if you would like my contact info...ok?
posted by AshbyInLove @ 9:09 PM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
Monday, September 27, 2004
Have you ever lived your life thinking you knew what God was calling you to do?
Then He tells you to do something you could never see yourself doing?
What are your fears?
Do you feel you aren't equipped to do what He has called you?
Like Ron Luce says, "God doesn't call the Equipped, but equips the Called."
Truly think about that, what has He called you to do that is so large in your eyes? You aren't called to do it alone... That is why we have God! Don't leave Him out of your life and decisions...Walk through the door He has opened for you...Don't be afraid to leave what you have to in order to do His will for your life...If you aren't asked to go up what you have...What do you have to fear?
posted by AshbyInLove @ 12:23 AM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
Saturday, September 25, 2004
Am I dreaming? Do I want to open my eyes? I don't want it to end...
I have a secret...lol...I am in an awesome relationship...
I remember back to the day we first meet...Do you remember? I have NO doubt you could forget...hehehe...Chris, you mean the world to me...God really answered my prayers when you came into my life...I had been praying for a close guy friend...Something I didn't know is what He had planned... "Us"!... While our friendship bloomed...Something I don't think each one of us really thought about formed deep inside our hearts...Could there be something more in this friendship? YES! And here we are...This relationship has showed me the way I should have been treated my whole life...Like the Lord's princess...You treat me as if I am a princess...Which I am...I thank the Lord for bringing us together at the Honor Academy...Never did I think I would meet someone so special...At least I didn't plan to...God had something else planned for both of us...
Friends and family, we are doing great! We talk every night to strengthen our friendship/courtship... God is so good at bringing two people together..And distance makes
no difference...We care for each other so much...I would no doubt agree with Chris when he says there is peace, purity, happiness,and love...
God, thank You!Hold this relationship close...We want you here closer now then ever before...Hold Chris & I close to your chest so we can hear you breath and your heart beat...We only want to be in Your Will...Show us someday what is to become of the relationship...We wait patient for You...
posted by AshbyInLove @ 9:47 PM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
Friday, September 24, 2004
Today was a crazy day! I worked in the 2 year old room, so my mom could go see her mother and celebrate her churches 50th anniversary...WoW! My mom is, well, older then her own church...hehehe LOL :) I couldn't help but say that...I have been working very hard and trying to prioritize my time better...
Please be praying for me...I have my first Math test tomorrow...College Algebra Rox the house! :) I like that 3 hour class ;) I don't know, but it isn't that bad...Well I'll let you all know how it went when I find out...
OH! By the way...I submitted some of my poetry to be possibly published in the college "inkling": a collection of writings from students within the college...Pray that goes well too...Thanks everyone! I hope to hear from some of you...I miss everyone I meet at the HA...Please comment and tell me how you are doing....God Bless...
I am just in need of prayer...
posted by AshbyInLove @ 11:35 PM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
Thursday, September 23, 2004
Thank you, O Father, for recasting my vision...You have called me to do so much...and I can't wait to start working on casting my vision and making it real...write a book, speak to churches, and much more!
posted by AshbyInLove @ 9:27 PM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
I just want to cry! Why do I seem to think about thing at the inappropriate times? My eyes just fill with tears...I'm sorry, Lord, for even thinking about this...Please make this misunderstanding clear to me...
Father, forgive me...I don't want to lose what I hold dear...Did I mess up again?
Please say, "No, my daughter! You are just thinking ahead and it was coming up to quickly. Everything will be okay! Just wait for my timing...Whatever happens will be grand no matter what it is."
posted by AshbyInLove @ 12:43 AM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
Please be praying for me...many things are going on in my life...much on my mind...and heart...
posted by AshbyInLove @ 5:01 PM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
Only now I wait to see where the next step will take me...
is it this or something else...
something better...
Could anything be better then this other then my relationship with the Lord?
As I sit and wait for the answer I can only imagine how great the feeling will be...
posted by AshbyInLove @ 9:19 PM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
My heart feels grieved...
I can't explain why...
Father, help me through this new stage of my life...My heart has never felt this way before...
what is going on in my life that is so different then ever before...
I have never seen myself feel this way...
Father, be beside me every step of the way...
Comfort me when I feel lonely...
sad...
and well...
missing people who mean the world to me...
posted by AshbyInLove @ 3:30 PM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
Monday, September 20, 2004
Cry, if you need to...
Don't hold in the emotions...
Don't allow yourself to keep telling people you are fine...
When you know you aren't...
If your heart grieves let it cry out to the Father...
He might not feel near by, but please don't go by feeling...
Our relationship with the Father should not be based on...
How you are feeling...
You will go through hard times...
According to my thoughts...
If you are feeling attacked...
It could mean strongly you are doing something right With your life...
If you are at some place and are struggling with situations around you...
Stand strong...
God will give you the strength...
And yes, sometime you will not want prayer...
But that could be the most important thing to do during a time like that...
Even if you can't speak...
The Lord knows what is on your heart...
Don't feel you always need to say something...
There are times when the Lord speaks the most when we have nothing to say at all...
posted by AshbyInLove @ 6:10 PM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
I look through the
window of my soul...How clean is the glass?
Are there things in my life I regret?
Things I would like to take back?
Father, can I be the same person I once was before I came back?
Why is life so hard?
I don't understand why coming back home would be so hard...
Never did I think I would have changed so much...
Did I make the right choice?
Coming back home?
Working?
Going to college?
What is it that You would have me do with my life?
Father, my heart breaks for people who might have any of these questions lingering in their minds...
Please, O Father, speak to them loud and clear...Let them know that You are near...Walking right beside them as they walk through their daily routines...let them know You will fulfill al their needs...
great and small...
big or tall...
posted by AshbyInLove @ 1:39 PM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
Sunday, September 19, 2004
What are the GIANTS in your life? Things that might be stopping you from doing what the Lord has called you? How is the weather?
Are you going through a few storms within your Christian walk? Have you got the courage to step out of the boat of your life, get out of your comfort zones, and trust God that He will protect you?
Just listen to these songs lyrics and think about the giants & the storm's waves which have made themselves known strongly in your life...What voices are you're listening to?
"Voice of Truth"
by Casting Crowns
Oh what I would do to have
The kind of faith it takes to climb out of the boat I'm in
Onto the crashing waves
To step out of my comfort zone
In to the realm of the unknown where Jesus is
And He's holding out His hand
But the waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
Time and time again, "Boy, you'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
The voice of truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the voice of truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth
Oh what I would do to have
The kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant
With just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand
But the giant's calling out my name and he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
Time and time again, "Boy, you'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"
But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the ground
And the waves they don't seem so high
From on top of them looking down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
Singing over me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth
posted by AshbyInLove @ 3:05 PM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
Saturday, September 18, 2004
Have you taken time out of your day to seat and talk to God?
Ask Him questions?
Seek Him for guidance in any situation?
What are your thoughts on, right now?
O Father, forgive me for leaving you out of my life!
Have those been thoughts that have quickly gone through your mind?
Just truly think about it...I don't mean to offend anyone...but what have we been doing since we have left the Honor Academy? Are we who we say we are? Do we always do the right thing regardless of expediency? What is it that we have learned at the Honor Academy? Were they Teen Mania's convictions or did you make your own convictions? Do you care what convictions you have? Seek the Lord and ask what has changed within you...Don't leave Him out of your life just because you don't have to have a quiet time...HA interns (I understand a quiet time is required, but dig into the Word and pursue God with all your heart, mind, and soul. This year will change your life forever whether you think so or not) and alumni(the bold print was for you all!)...I love you, but what are you doing to change the world?
If you are wondering what I have been doing....I am working and going to college...planning on transferring to either HBU or GCU and pursuing a major in Speech Communications...what has He called you to do? Are you doing the best you can to pursue that? If so, you are doing great job! Like I said earlier...I didn't type this post to offend anyone...just really think about it... I know I have been...I had plans on going to Vietnam to be a nanny and God has closed that door for right now...I have been looking into going to a university in fall 2005...We will just have to see...Thank you for reading my post...Have a great day! May God bless you for your obedience... :)
posted by AshbyInLove @ 9:18 PM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
Friday, September 17, 2004
My heart longs for...
My mind has thoughts of...
why do I miss this ...?
Why does this ... have to be so distant?
So far away...
Bring it closer, O God!
I long to be in...
Not having to worry, is this the last one I will...?
The only one I will... for the rest of time?
O God, give me guidance...
I don't want to give my heart to...
Is this were the search will end for...?
I have left out one word...figure it out... :) This is something the readers are going to have to really think about when they read this...Karen, if you are reading this post.Please really think about what I wrote...I feel you will understand right away what the missing word is...you know I am here for you, but don't make a mistake about "it", ok? please email me and tell me what you thought about the post...anyone can for that matter...I miss everyone of you internships, alumni, and noneo Teen Mania friends who might be looking at this website... I would love to hear how you are doing...leave a commment if you can...
Could the word be "Love"? You all come up with your own thoughts on the post you are reading...
posted by AshbyInLove @ 12:18 AM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
Thursday, September 16, 2004
Do you have fear of being the same person you were?...If you have a personal relationship with the Lord and have ask for forgiveness Your past is, well, forgiven...Don't allow Satan's lies to creep into your mind any longer, telling you, "You can't stop from being the same person you were before."...that is a lie from the pit of Hell!I will stand beside the Father and fight to win my life back...
My past tries to creep upon me, but I will no longer listen to the lies I have been told for most of my life...NO MORE!! You shouldn't have to either...Fight for your life to be free from your past...If you ever need someone to pray for you, just email me at: stolengirl@gmail.com I will leave you to think about what was written...Allow the Father to search within your heart...to dig the sin right out of you...
posted by AshbyInLove @ 12:26 AM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
So much to do and so little time...my head is about to explode!History and English papers are due at some point during the rest of this month and I haven't really started on any of them...Lord, please help me to do my best...History is so boring (no offense to you all wanting to be a history major:) ) I only wished the instructor would make it more interesting...I am just having alot of things happening right now in my life...Work is just not what it cracked up to be...I thought I had a great job until...well, I'll just keep it at that...then the flow for my paper in History is just NOT coming through...Be praying for this sister in Houston...
The greatest thing I know is whatever happens will be a learning lesson...
posted by AshbyInLove @ 5:40 PM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
The Rainbow of life...
From the inside & out
Blue...the way you feel when you think you have failed the Father...
Purple...the robes He wore while being mocked on the cross...
Green...the life He lives within us...
Yellow...the Light shone upon us to guide what direction is at hand...
Orange...the fire that burns inside us with love to see the Kingdom of God come to pass...
Red...The blood He shed for us, so that our lives can be changed and we could show the world His love for them...
Don't forget the Rainbow! He created it as a symbol of promise...What has he promised you? He will follow through, but you should keep your part as well...
posted by AshbyInLove @ 5:22 PM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
Monday, September 13, 2004
God, help me! Something is going on here and I can't help...please send someone to us to help...something just doesn't feel right about my surroundings at home...Give me the strength I need to get through this...I don't think this is anything the whole world needs to know about much less any one at all...Just You, O Father! I need your guidance on what to say...What do I do? Father, my hearts cries out for more of You in my family's life...please show Yourself strong in my life...I love you, O Father...This hurts me so...Help me be the light...Help me through my struggles...Thank You for freedom!
Freedom from the past...fear of the future...fear of failing YOU...
Everyone, thank you for your prayers...they are heart felt...
posted by AshbyInLove @ 11:48 PM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
Chris Marsh! I am going to miss you very much...We will keep in touch...Your Texan parents (my parents) say they would love to keep in touch with you as well...Brothers and Sisters stick by each other in times of need...if you ever need someone to talk to I am here...I will be getting a cell phone, so could you give me your home phone number so I can call you and see how you are doing? Ashby and I will be praying about whatever the situation is/was...
Email me sometime, ok? Let me know how you are doing...I will try my best to come down this weekend...How can I get in touch with you? What is a way I can get in touch with Chad Keifer? I would like to see you before you leave...:(
I am going to miss you Bro!!
posted by AshbyInLove @ 5:24 PM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
Sunday, September 12, 2004
Life throws so many things at you...
What are you going through? Heart break or the fear of making the same mistake...
What do you truly have to worry about? God has it all in His hands...
Just trust Him...Lean upon your father...Heavenly Father that is...
What has been on your heart?
What has been calling you?
Have you been calling out to the Father? He is crying for you to come to Him...
He has so much for you...
Don't loss hope! You might be having a hard time being away from the Honor Academy and/or home, because you have come back home or have left for college...BUT,
God is still beside you every step of the way...
Stop running away from Him....
Are you scared you will fail Him?
Is the calling on your life so large you can't do it on your own? You aren't supposed to do it ALONE...
God has called you to do it through Him...
If you are going to speak...
It won't be you who is speaking...
Allow God to move in your life...
Stop Running!!
God has so much for you if you just ask...
Please ask Him for help if you are struggling...
That is all I ask...
Just don't forget Him in the plans you make...
Every decision will change your life forever...
posted by AshbyInLove @ 9:44 PM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
Saturday, September 11, 2004
I will wait patiently for him...
O God, you have given him to me...
and I will treasure every minute.....
the time we are given will be so memorable...
every second will be sent from You...
Father, thank you for this gift...
I will never forget what it took to get here...
Who I am now...
That is who he has begun to know and love...
Thank you, O Father, for changing me from the inside & out...
Only You know when I will be ready for...
posted by AshbyInLove @ 11:14 PM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
I think everyday of the path this relationship will go....
We will keep each other company on the ice of Canada....
We most of all will look up to the Father for guidance and wisdom for decisions we will make....together or apart....
We know the Lord's love is within us.... That is why we have so much....
Things I would like to do....but the distance has hindered it for right now....
Picnics in the parks of Houston....
Walks on the beaches of any state....
We will walk a distance together and when we look back we will smile...because we started out right....
posted by AshbyInLove @ 6:01 PM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
Love is like a Rose....
Love is like a rose you never know how beautiful it is until it is bloomed to its fullest...
We will go through times of hardship... when the thorns of life try to get in the way...
But when you put all the love we have it becomes a beautiful bouquet...
These roses are us.... They are just beginning to bloom.... I can't wait to see what the bouquet will someday look like... How beautiful!!!
White is for purity we seek in this relationship....
Red is for love that beats so strong....
Yellow is for God's light that shines so bright....
What have I been given? A Special Gift from the Lord...Thank You, O Father!!
posted by AshbyInLove @ 11:14 PM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
I could have only dreamed to have brothers like you all. I miss everyone of you very much and would love to hear from you and know how you are doing... I have talked to Joey, Denver, Ricky, and no doubt Chris... but how is everyone else? Pat that includes you too... I would love to know what you all are up to... Talk to you all soon :)
Stolen Sista
posted by AshbyInLove @ 5:21 PM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
Monday, September 06, 2004
I no longer want to look back.....
I will look up to Heaven and ask the Father for guidance and protection....As to what the next step is to be....O Father, thank you for guiding me and going me the peace....You are all need....but You have given me so much more... Thank you, O Father....
posted by AshbyInLove @ 7:19 PM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
Sunday, September 05, 2004
I will fight, if I need to! God gave this to us and we will fight to make it work. Someone is scared if we put two and two together and that something great will happen. Well, he better be scared. We will win this fight, because we have God on our side. Please be praying those strong prayers! We will win this fight!!
posted by AshbyInLove @ 9:00 PM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
Saturday, September 04, 2004
What many of you were hoping would happened, well happened tonight. Chris and I are now courting! Not like you didn't have any clue....lol I am so gald we took time away from communicating with each other to pray about this decision. It was the hardest time in my life(concerning relationships). I care for him very much and didn't want to mess up our great friendship. Which is growing stronger as I speak. This relationship will be greater then any relationship I have ever been in. I praise the Lord for bring us together and allowing us to get to know each other on a friendship level. I am so happy!!!! I guess you all got the clue through the post, right?
posted by AshbyInLove @ 12:07 AM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
Friday, September 03, 2004
Many things are going on in my life right now. A big decision is about to be made. I feel the Lord has already given me the answer, but I will wait to post that answer for a later date. My thoughts about next year have made a big change. I will not be going to Vietnam. Why? You might be thinking? If you were unable to read my last few posts. I will tell you. I got a phone call and talked to someone from OMF. We talked for a while and came up with this thought: "I will be going to college to go get my degree in Speech Communications. I plan on going to Japan with Teen Mania next summer 2005. Work somewhere and save up money to someday move out of my parent's apartment." Any question? Don't worry I just had a slap of reality yesterday. Was I truly ready to go to an other country by myself? Not really! But I really didn't put much that to it until that call. Thank you, Lord!
I talked to Katrina last night and she told me something no one had told me yet. Lord, I don't want him to have any regrets. If you call him to come back to... then he needs to go. This is hard for me to say, but I will wait for the right time.
All I want is God's will, but if God has something change then I will soon know. O Father, keep speaking to us about what should happen. I miss the talks I have with him and all the times we just pick fun at each other. Our friendship is something special. I pray it just becomes stronger from now on, O Father!
posted by AshbyInLove @ 7:19 PM
{hey.halfofmine,..}
Thursday, September 02, 2004
Keep praying! The Lord will answer.... Don't forget I am praying for you too.
Anyone who needs someone to talk to. I am here and will do the best I can, but best thing I can do is pray that the Lord directs and gives you wisdom about the decisions you have to make. Some might be life changing and some may not, but they are prayers just the same. I am here as best I can. I love you all very much.
posted by AshbyInLove @ 11:32 PM
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