Life is tough right now...REALLY tough.  Father, all I ask is that You open a door.  Two doors if possible and ask me to chose one, but right now I don't have anything.  Things are so hard for me right now. Not just about the possiblity of not seeing Chris, but just life in general.  Tickets and college to pay for, but the money not being there can cause people to stress out.  Yes, that is where I am.  I am stressed and my face shows it.  I know one thing my parents wish so much is to help me, but they are barely getting by with all they have to pay for much less be able to help me. 

I have no doubt God is preparing me for my future, but why does it have to be like this?  He has called me to speak to the Church and un-Churched, and that I will have to depend on them for mission's support.  Never in my mind did I think it would be so hard to fully depend on God and others.  I can't do anything about any of these situations right now.  They are in the hands of God and my future employers . 

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