Have you ever been so busy with life that you forget sometimes why God has placed you on the earth?

I have been...I must be honest with you all. I had begun to fall back. I didn't like the feeling any longer. So, I decided I was going to fight!! Seek the Lord to reveal my purpose to me once again. As I sat here writing in my journal...thinking of what to say...the Lord told me to write my testimony. I never realized how much of a testimony I have. I am not meaning to sound prideful, but I have had a tough life....I just never thought that MY LIFE would make any impact on anyone, so I never bothered to write to down to the full.

So here it goes...My life began with a family seeking after God with all their hearts. They had left everything common to them to live in a country they had never been. Bringing along with them a son under the age of 1...they traveled to many other countries before I even came into the picture. I was born in Manila, Philippines. Yes, I was a missionary child...along with my older brother, Michael.

As the months rolled by, I was diagnosed with Tuberculosis. A disease which usually caused DEATH upon many infants. I was only 6 months old when I was diagnosed with this disease. Allow me to tell you this...if it weren't for the people who give to Missions I wouldn't be here today...breathing the breathes the Lord has so graciously given me. I have never been given the chance to thank those people, but THANK YOU!

As the years went by I came to the U.S for the first time....many years have gone by until the next story I will tell you, but here I go...I had to give you a little background about myself so you could better understand this story. Due to the fact I was born in the Philippines, Tagalog was my first language, so i struggled with school. I was pulled back many times. So, I went through stages in my life earlier then everyone else in my class. One struggle I will never forget and one I still struggle with to this day is my complexion. My self-esteem was shot at so many times emotionally in middle school. All this treatment brought thoughts of suicide through my mind. I just didn't care anymore, but the only thing that kept me going was the love shown to me by my parents and most importantly God.

Yes, I struggled with male relationships too. I thought I had to please them...I thought I had to do whatever they wanted...I thought that was all I could do to keep them in my life. I "loved" them and I thought they "loved" me too.

Now, I am 22 years old....I still struggle with my self-esteem every once and  while, but when I look back at all I went through and where it has placed me now and the friends I had made through it I would have had it no other way. The Lord is so faithful...He was there right beside me through every trial and holding me when I was in all that pain.

I don't know how many people could relate to this, but I know there is someone out there struggling with this right now and just doesn't know what to do. Rest in his hands....Read the verse on the title of this site....You are BEAUTIFUL!!! No matter what the world might say to you...ignore them....walk away from the lies...RUN to the Lord and allow Him to love you and tell you how beautiful you are to Him and the one He will or has placed in your life.

Right now in my life I have been blessed with the gift of someone's love for me. The Lord has given me a man who looks into my eyes and sees what God has created, not what I have seen for so long, but someone so beautiful I take his breath away. The Lord is holding your face in His hands looking into your face...and has been captivated, because you are soooo BEAUTIFUL....Song of Sons 4:9 "You have stolen my heart, my sister, my bride; you have stolen my heart with one glance of your eyes with one jewel of your necklace."

For so long I tried to cover what I thought was a flaw in me, but I have no flaws...God made me the exact way He so desired me to be. And He has so blessed me with the love of a man who loves me for me...not only when I have makeup on , but also when I don't. Ladies, that's love...God's love...The love I so desired, but placed in the hands of my Father.for 3 years. I waited on the Lord, and look who He blessed me with... 

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